July 2011
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I'm so sorry darlings,
I’ve been so (way too) busy. So here we goooo…
Have people ever made comments about your weight in a negative way? Yes. It’s extremely hurtful. And for the most part true. In fact my Aunt called me a cow yesterday, but she’s a hateful old bitch anyway.
What was the hardest thing you gave up during this “weight loss.” Probably my sanity. It’s just constantly on my...
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get on the floor, don't make a fuss, just do it.
Your workout routine.
It honestly depends on the day. I don’t have a solid routine because I like to mix things up.
Swimming, jogging, core, I liked to do weight training when I was going to the gym religiously there for a while.
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I know it's where you want to go this time, I see...
Do your parents know you’re trying to lose weight? Do they care?
Although I live with my parents, they don’t notice much. As in, much of anything. They don’t know my behaviours, or cycles I go through. But even if they knew, I don’t think they’d care.
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Sometimes we jump across to every cloud, fly away...
Do you binge? (If so, explain why you think you do.)
Yes. I have a habit of binging. It hasn’t been so bad lately, because I am mostly eating “snacks” for meals. (carrots and hummus, or an apple, a small single container of yogurt.) But I am an emotional eater. I’m sad, I eat. I’m anxious, I eat. It becomes a habit. A shameful one.
I find, however, that when I...
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cryptic message written in the dark, how it haunts...
Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?
I’m not happy in my body. I’m uncomfortable. I feel ugly, and I hate it. I want to lose weight so I don’t feel so uncomfortable. So I can finally run. So I can go to the gym and do a full workout without feeling paranoid and ashamed.
I don’t have anyone else influencing me in this journey. I don’t...
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complications of the heart always left you torn...
Your greatest fears about weight loss?
Failing like I do, time and time again. It’s terrifying to think of. Still hating my body when I get there.
I’m scared of trying to do this the healthy way. I really do want to fix myself of this disordered eating habits.
Swaying fully into Ana or Mia, as I truly am trying to get healthier. Complications with Ana or Mia. Gallstones, Anemia,...
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punctured bicycle on a hillside desolate
A picture of your thinspiration. What features do you like about this person?
I wouldn’t say I have one thinspiration. All the people I post are thinspiration to me. If you’re curious, just lurk my tumblr a little bit :)
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You feel it all around yourself, you know it's...
How tall are you? Do you like your height?
I included my height in my stats yesterday.
5’5.5”
I’ve come to terms with my height after being this tall for the majority of my life. I don’t really like, or dislike my height. I’m indifferent. Although I feel as if I were taller, weight would shed a little easier for me. (regardless if it was healthy weightloss, or...
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night lovelies
xoxo
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I'm going to open up a little...
I’m going to answer the 30 day challenge questions. I’m going to be ashamed of a lot of my answers, but I feel like it may help me deal with some things… Here we go: What are your stats? Height: Five feet, and five and a half inches. (5’5.5”) Current Weight: 156 lbs Starting Weight: 156 lbs High Weight: 173.8 lbs Lowest Weight: 125 lbs That was really hard for me to...
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Fasting this weekend
liquids only! (this should be easy if it goes as planned) What are your plans for the weekend, my dears?
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